•My Testimony My Gift•

1 Samuel 2:4

The bows of the mighty men are broken, and they that stumbled are girded with strength.

I’ve found myself daily dwelling on the old person I was. I was once dead now I’m alive, and it’s hard to get used to. When telling my testimony sometimes I’m ashamed and even scared of sharing the full truth, but then I realize it’s what brought me closer to the lord. The lord showed me that’s who I was and he formed me before the foundations of the earth, he knew what was to come and what is to come. I’ve always been ashamed of the mistakes I’ve made or the rebellious decisions in my life but I’m mostly ashamed of my upbringing. Sometimes I wonder if I never had the mother I had then maybe I would be different? But I wouldn’t be me, the lord has made me strong, courageous and he’s teaching me to rely on him only. As I think of this present day and how Im adopted with new parents that love Jesus, I almost forgot who my father was, but God was quick to remind me he adopted me first and they are his precious gift to me. He saved me from a life full of sin. I’m much like Paul, I was dead and now I’m alive, I was poor and now I’m rich in spirit. This verse was given to me and I ultimately found a sense of relief, I’m okay with who I am today and who the lord is making me out to be. Stumble, to doing the same thing over and over again, to make the same mistake and repeat it, to die over and over again only to finally live, to finally breath.